The last couple days have been pretty normal. I’ve been working… trying to stay there for a full day, but I can’t seem to do it. I would have tonight but old friends were having a party so I went and joined them. It was good. We got my linux box set partially back up… the webserver at least is working. I’m working on copying the stuff off it because for some reason the OS is pooched. I showed a old friend who’s a linux god, and he said he was surprised I could even log in. *snicker* So while Brandon works with Qwest to get BTSFH.NET moved over to their DNS servers, I’m going to be downloading the newest Debian ISO and getting ready for install. Format and reinstall… ahh joy! I’ve done this enough times it should be second nature by now. Ah well, now that I have a really fast connection going to it, I’ll be using it more… need to get a mail server set up quickly too because Brandon and I still use that email. (Brandon’s urging me on that because it looks like his btsfh.net account now doesn’t work.. oh well, a couple of days I guess.

As for my apartment… she was supposed to come by and give me my key this morning after I signed a paper and gave her a check, but.. it didn’t work that way. She instead dropped off the contract and apparently left town. She’ll be back on Wednesday. *Sigh* The party I was going to throw on Sunday might be postponed. Just my luck. And aside from that, I need to like beg my dad for money. I’m way in the hole after the down payment and first months rent… and with no real work for the last little bit, I’m kinda fucked. I have good bargaining power with my dad though, “Well, I needed a place to stay and your wife said, ‘Uh, No.’ when I asked to stay there long enough to get money balanced again. I have enough for rent (sending me almost equal to my overdraft limit…) but not enough for my car payment. I guess either he’ll lend me the money or it’ll be two weeks late. *shrug* They’ll survive and I will too. I just hate being so low on money. I had to borrow a few to get gas even. *saa* I hate borrowing money even more. Much much more. I’m just glad I have such a good friend as Brandon to help. (He even said I might be able to borrow the car payment if things go well… I’ll try not to but I might have to… *sigh* I’m glad he’s a friend..) So, my big anime/dinner/gaming/etc housewarming party might be postponed! Stay tuned for details!

In other news, Aubree has been sick the last couple of days. She actually went home today from work and slept. She hasn’t been sleeping very well, waking like a dozen times a night, and headaches and stomachaches have been bothering her. I hope she gets ok. I don’t like seeing her in discomfort. Lately, we’ve been having fun just driving places and sitting there and talking… among other things.. Talking about how we met. How we’ve known each other forever and how our love has changed. Back before we started dating for real.. she asked to speak to me. We went to Tanner park and she decided to sing me a song. (Lyrics below.) She said it best felt how the relationship was and has become. I think it’s become “our” song. I hate work.. I wonder if I’ll be able to see her tomorrow.. *hopes*

Anyways, Debian being downloaded, and all’s done for the day that I can do… time for some sleep. Talk to you laters.

=^..^= Matt

The Search Is Over – Survivor

How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin’, you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

I was living for a dream,
Loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
That was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever,
The search is over
You were with me all the while

Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it’s so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes, and patiently you’d wait
Till I came to my senses, through some miracle of fate

I was living for a dream,
Loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
That was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever,
The search is over
You were with me all the while

Now the miles stretch out behind me loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally stuck like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle, our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me show me that you give a damn
You’ll know for certain the man I really am

I was living for a dream,
Loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
That was just my style
Then I touched your heart
I can hear you whisper,
The search is over
Love was right before my eyes

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