I just had another girl online who thinks she loves me say goodbye. Dhael if anyone remembers her. I don’t know what made her think she loves me, or what. She’s working towards her marine biological something or other degree, and so she hardly has time to come online at all… no less sleep or have fun… Anyways, she had apparently been online for a hour or something waiting for me and was depressed. My computer crashed before I could post her response, but it was something like You don’t know how much I missed and love you… goodbye. I sent a lot of messages like Wait! And Whats the matter… but she didn’t respond until after I said *sigh* Goodbye.. She then said What am I going to do with you? All I could think to say was Talk with me? *looks hopeful* She’s a cool person, but I don’t feel any real love for her, and so I find myself sad when I think about her. She lives far away so I doubt I’ll hurt her too much… but I’ve found in the past that sometimes distance doesn’t matter. Hell, I’ve been hurt from a long distance thing…

Anyways… last night we had this big party. Most of my friends came… Bob, Brandon, Tony, and my little brother Daniel. Nick had to work and Aubree’s in Cali still. Anyways, I made everyone dinner and we played video games and just had fun. Played a game called Gauntlet Legends. Quite a fun game. 🙂 I also found out that out of them, except bob, but he doesn’t count, none of them can cook. 😛 I made something simple but still, I was kinda amazed. (Nicks prob one of the best cooks I know but he wasn’t there 😉 We played way into the morning. It was way fun.

Also I can say is my teeth seem to be doing a lot better. They haven’t hurt at all really since I woke up. Maybe I’ll be able to last until I get the good insurance after all. (I’m still going to go see a dentist soon on my crappy insurance to make sure I’ll last that long… if not, I don’t know what I’m going to do… oh well.

Another strange thing… we have Cable TV. I don’t watch tv, so I didn’t care much, but one of my old favorite shows came on. MacGyver. I used to watch that religiously when I was a kid. That and Knight Rider. Ahh, the memories. MacGvyer rocks! Hey, I still think you can get out of any situation with duct tape and a pocket knife. *grin* I wonder how he would get out of being between two wonderful women… duct tape them together and pretend? Uhh… nah. 🙂 oh well…. I’m starting to think one of the girls gave up on me forever anyways. It really hurts… mainly because I can’t do anything about it… I just wish she would have talked to me.. *sigh* I guess this is life… And I must live it… oh well. I just hope she’s doing ok………

Also, speaking of girls. I miss Aubree badly! I’m really surprised by it actually. After seeing her like a week total in the last four months, now I miss her badly after just a couple days. I knew I always loved her, but I was did a good job convincing myself I didn’t. I was so convinced I didn’t think I could ever really be with her again… and then in just a couple days, my heart remembered and here I am. I hope she’s ok. I also hope she’s having fun. I can’t wait until she gets back. 🙂

Anyways.. I slept most of the day, so I’m going to go running, take a shower, and get some things planned for this weeks adventure role playing. I’m not sure if it’s me or bob who will be GMing, but I want to be ready just in case. I hope everyones doing ok out there… and I hope things get better for me. Everyone wish me luck! 😉 Aside from the job and the new appt, I still have life to worry about. *grin* Lets see what the future brings, shall we. (I’m starting to think that’s my catch phrase… heh.

Later all!
~ Matt, the cute little cat-boy.

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